Suicide Prevention Day Today

Comment on TheBloggess’s post sums it up well.

“Depression lies is a good one! Also, people love you! No matter who you are or what you have done, someone somewhere loves you and would be devastated to lose you. Even if it’s just me who doesn’t even know you but can’t wait to see how your life turns out. ♥ ~Stacy”

Also from PostSecrets founder’s FaceBook post:

“Every 18 minutes, someone dies from a suicide. Every 43 seconds, someone attempts one.” Today is World Suicide Prevention Day :: Call for help or hope  1-800-SUICIDE


Depression fucking lies and the world needs you.




I'm getting help this next week and if you are feeling depressed or stressed like me please reach out and get help. We need you. The world needs you.

Things that help me feel not alone when down.





And yes some is repeated from my depression post.



Little Talks - Of Monsters and Men

Hey! Hey! Hey!

I don't like walking around this old and empty house.
So hold my hand, I'll walk with you my dear

The stairs creak as I sleep,
it's keeping me awake
It's the house telling you to close your eyes

Some days I can't even dress myself.
It's killing me to see you this way.

'Cause though the truth may vary
this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore.

Hey! Hey! Hey!

There's an old voice in my head
that's holding me back
Well tell her that I miss our little talks.

Soon it will all be over, buried with our past
We used to play outside when we were young
and full of life and full of love.

Some days I feel like I'm wrong when I am right.
Your mind is playing tricks on you my dear.

'Cause though the truth may vary
This ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Hey!
Don't listen to a word I say
Hey!
The screams all sound the same.
Hey!

Though the truth may vary
this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

You're gone, gone, gone away,
I watched you disappear.
All that's left is a ghost of you.
Now we're torn, torn, torn apart,
there's nothing we can do,
Just let me go, we'll meet again soon.

Now wait, wait, wait for me, please hang around
I'll see you when I fall asleep.

Hey!
Don't listen to a word I say
Hey!
The screams all sound the same.
Hey!

Though the truth may vary
this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Hey!
Don't listen to a word I say
Hey!
The screams all sound the same.
Hey!

Though the truth may vary
this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore (x3)

Depression - It lies

I've come to a crossroad and the demon there has hitched a ride in my head telling dark stories full of lies. I've learned that every 5 to 6 month I hit a dark wall of depression and after trying to rope it from a thyroid perspective it is time to admit I've drawn the short genetic straw again and have some depressive issues that need addressing. I'm seeking help for this before the demon wears me down and tries to tell me that there is only one short road to fallow. There isn't but that is the yarn he keeps trying to spin. Its a old tale that is boring and with little imaginative flare. He needs some new tricks.

I have a appointment this next month with the my headshrinker that has been working with me on my anxiety and thyroid related emotional crap. Time to sit down and say its time we work on this demon as well. If it gets worse I'll talk about having it moved up. I'm in this for the win not to let some lying shit bag lay me low.


All my cards are out on the table and now it is people's turn to either stay at the table and continue playing this hand with me or pick up and walk out into the dark. I've really rather have you stay and sit a spell talking and laughing and sharing the good times with me on this road of life but I've had several fold, pull back their chairs and walk on. I can't and won't stop them but those that stay make me forever in their debt. We all need friends when the roads get long and the weather bad. This time I ask that you walk a while with me.

Some things that I have been listening to and watching.

Little Talks - Of Monsters and Men

Hey! Hey! Hey!

I don't like walking around this old and empty house.
So hold my hand, I'll walk with you my dear

The stairs creak as I sleep,
it's keeping me awake
It's the house telling you to close your eyes

Some days I can't even dress myself.
It's killing me to see you this way.

'Cause though the truth may vary
this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore.

Hey! Hey! Hey!

There's an old voice in my head
that's holding me back
Well tell her that I miss our little talks.

Soon it will all be over, buried with our past
We used to play outside when we were young
and full of life and full of love.

Some days I feel like I'm wrong when I am right.
Your mind is playing tricks on you my dear.

'Cause though the truth may vary
This ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Hey!
Don't listen to a word I say
Hey!
The screams all sound the same.
Hey!

Though the truth may vary
this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

You're gone, gone, gone away,
I watched you disappear.
All that's left is a ghost of you.
Now we're torn, torn, torn apart,
there's nothing we can do,
Just let me go, we'll meet again soon.

Now wait, wait, wait for me, please hang around
I'll see you when I fall asleep.

Hey!
Don't listen to a word I say
Hey!
The screams all sound the same.
Hey!

Though the truth may vary
this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Hey!
Don't listen to a word I say
Hey!
The screams all sound the same.
Hey!

Though the truth may vary
this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore (x3)





And my real life hero The Bloggess talking about depression. God I love this lady!

I guess there is always using ping to mass post like this. To bad there is not a driod app >.<

Week 63 (+45) Been a while again

63

-Sixty-three is Ascii for question mark: '?'
-The number of chromosomes found in the offspring of a donkey and a horse.


Been a large handful of days since I've been back to update or anything on my LJ.

Had to change the sibling road trip (SRT) for this year. /sadpanda Instead of Oregon and the beach and the Wildlife park it is going to be Bear Lake with swimming and a cookout and smores. Also a couple friends on FB suggested Minnitonka Caves. Sounds fun and I think that Paul 'n Rach will like it. I know that we are all excited for Bear Lake later this month.

But mark my word we will make it to the Oregon trip this next year or sometime in the near future. It will happen! lol. Sounds to fun to skip and was planned out and all things it was green light and good to go. Only problem was that we could not get all four of our free days to line up for it thanks to John's section head yanking his vacations days. >.> Arse...

Other then that its just been the norm with School prep, work adult crap and life in general.

I've also been really excited for Craig and his new life adventures. Dropped him a house warming gift and I have another planned. I think it is a very exciting time in his life right now even with it being hectic.

Anyway while out and running errands I was listening to Pandora on my Droid phone and found a shit-ton of new bands that are awesome that I want to explore some more!

All these bands have that awesome Celtic folk/rock sound to them that I love in the band "Enter The Haggis" (ETH). Honestly I'm still on the fence about Flogging Molly. I grabbed a CD of theirs' after hearing a song on x96 and was kinda disappointed by it compared to ETH. I mean I love Scot-Irish traditional music like bagpipes, drums and flutes and I love celtic-alt/rock but their music just did not seem to click with me. I've tried letting it grow on me like I have had to with other CDs, even CDs from my fav bands. No such luck. :/ Oh well some of their songs are good.

Bands from the Dropkick Murphy station:
-Dropkick Murphy (yes I need to still look into them)
-Blaggards (kinda like Celtic-rock with sea shanties really neat)
-The Pogues
-The Real McKenzies
-Tossers
-The Tossers (I'll have to double check if this is the same group)
-The Young Dubliners
-The Briggs
-Gaelic Storm (They are the same band that was the 3rd class band in Titanic)
-Great Big Sea
-The Bollox

I really should use Pandora more often. I mean it has been how long since Craig told me about it? more then 3 years I think. I dunno but a long time and John uses it ALL THE TIME... In the car while running around. Want to listen to one of the many CDS in the car? Nope Pandora. lol.

By the way my Pandora username is my hotmail right now but if I can I'll change it to my gmail. Just if you are interested in my channels. *shrugs*

Anyway just a tiny update and more rantage then update. Oh well.

laters my interweb peeps

Its that time of year again. Oi... lol

Just pasting my wall post from FB here 'cuz it says it all.

Just finished up all the lil details that *I* need to do for the SR this year and I'm not to surprised at the end product. I'm leaving the gas figures to John. As I was sitting here knee deep in mapquest, hotel addresses, room prices and dates, John who is on the couch playing WoW says that I'm great at this planing stuff and could do it for a living. Thx for saying so John but ummm no thx. It is as Ina said last time (or the time before I can't tell) my mother bird phase in the trip and doings. If I don't then it will never get done lol. Now just to wait for it to get close so I can go into panic mood and start doing the packing (or should I say bugging them to get packed) and entertainment and food ready. *sigh* more planing.

OH THE RAPTURE!

OH THE RAPTURE!

.....err maybe not. :/

I wonder what this is?

Current Location:

H2.0 - FINALLY I'M SOOOOO TIRED! -_-

Current Mood:

amused

Current Music:

nada right now

Hmm this looks interesting. ;D