So fish oil HATES me so I'm going vegan and trying Flax seed oil.
Ya know the days seem to fly by no matter how horrible certain moments are.... it feels odd to feel so messed up each day in the head yet feel like the days are ripping by. I think it has to do with the feeling that I'm doing very little compared to normal and so I'm 'loosing' time.
Sux but each day moves me forward and I do have like 4 packages coming and one of them does have three "Enter the Haggis" CDs in it ^_^ (squeee)
I wanna thank all the people that keep reminding me how strong I am and that they know I can fight my way out even if it is a long and horrid road!
Also the good weather and later sun sets are lifting parts of my mood.
Anyway that is all for this moment in time lol.
***OH! It is way to cold to be this sunny lol.***
Showing posts with label family. Show all posts
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Thursday, March 12, 2009
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Just musing and wondering.
So these are my random thoughts for the day and your $0.02 are all welcome.
So I was reading through Sunday's PostSecrets and there was one about a person that went through chemo and was not able to have kids and how they felt unimportant to the human race now. So It made me wonder would I (or any of you) marry a person that you knew could not have kids if you loved them? Would you stayed married to a person that could not have kids after you just got married (like you found out less then 6 months to a year after you got married)? If you had been trying for a long time like years and found out that they could not? Is it that important to have kids for you?
And to the people that say they would just adopt... well what if you where to poor to adopt? Then would you still stay married to the person?
Ok what if you where the person that was the infertile one? How would you feel? What would you say and do?
I don't know how I would feel personally. I think I would feel like I let them down but I would love my husband first and kids are a secondary thing in a marriage (albeit important in many ways). I still don't know how I feel about adoption. I know I sound like a bigot but I want kids that look like kids I would have. I guess that would also change if I married outside of my heritage and background. There are also other factors like how my husband's family would feel that I 'cheated' them out of grand kids and the family name being passed down. If he was the only male child or the only one that was going to have kids in his family or such. Then there are cultural and religious pressures to deal with as well.
So much to think about. What do you think about it?
On a similar note it always make me wonder when I see those young LDS couples (and others I'm not picking on anyone here ^_^) that have not been married even nine - ten months to a couple years and they already have a kid/s. Do they even really know each other? I want a year or more to know my new husband before I even think about kids. A new husband, a new life, a new living situation, a new house/apt and so very much more and now they already have another new little life to deal with and fit into this new life of theirs. (not that kids are bad so don't think that I'm saying that people just musing out load here) I just think "...first comes love then comes marriage...." and when the times is right and you both know each other as husband/wife, friend, lover and even gotten in whoppers of fight and know how to work through pain and anger and still know that you will always care for the other... and have the time and money and stable environment and only then "....then comes the baby in the baby carriage".
So yeah that is my brain leak for the morning.
So I was reading through Sunday's PostSecrets and there was one about a person that went through chemo and was not able to have kids and how they felt unimportant to the human race now. So It made me wonder would I (or any of you) marry a person that you knew could not have kids if you loved them? Would you stayed married to a person that could not have kids after you just got married (like you found out less then 6 months to a year after you got married)? If you had been trying for a long time like years and found out that they could not? Is it that important to have kids for you?
And to the people that say they would just adopt... well what if you where to poor to adopt? Then would you still stay married to the person?
Ok what if you where the person that was the infertile one? How would you feel? What would you say and do?
I don't know how I would feel personally. I think I would feel like I let them down but I would love my husband first and kids are a secondary thing in a marriage (albeit important in many ways). I still don't know how I feel about adoption. I know I sound like a bigot but I want kids that look like kids I would have. I guess that would also change if I married outside of my heritage and background. There are also other factors like how my husband's family would feel that I 'cheated' them out of grand kids and the family name being passed down. If he was the only male child or the only one that was going to have kids in his family or such. Then there are cultural and religious pressures to deal with as well.
So much to think about. What do you think about it?
On a similar note it always make me wonder when I see those young LDS couples (and others I'm not picking on anyone here ^_^) that have not been married even nine - ten months to a couple years and they already have a kid/s. Do they even really know each other? I want a year or more to know my new husband before I even think about kids. A new husband, a new life, a new living situation, a new house/apt and so very much more and now they already have another new little life to deal with and fit into this new life of theirs. (not that kids are bad so don't think that I'm saying that people just musing out load here) I just think "...first comes love then comes marriage...." and when the times is right and you both know each other as husband/wife, friend, lover and even gotten in whoppers of fight and know how to work through pain and anger and still know that you will always care for the other... and have the time and money and stable environment and only then "....then comes the baby in the baby carriage".
So yeah that is my brain leak for the morning.
Monday, October 6, 2008
Yellowstone and Grand Teton
So like a posted earlier via PSP I'm back all the way home this time (not just in Utah).
We set out at about a little after 5am Thursday on our 4 hour and 40 min drive to Jackson (*cough more like 5-6 hours cough*). After taking a wrong turn just before Cokeville and turning about and getting back on track we started our drive through Bridger Nation forest. Beautiful place with the surprise that cattle and sheep graze freely through it and across the open highway that cuts through it. Also many great views of the mighty Snake river.
After we got to Jackson and checked into our room we rested up for a couple hours took potty breaks and had lunch then set out for Teton.
Driving through Grand Teton National Park we saw beautiful colors of Fall hanging from the trees, along the road old park signs from the 40s-50s warning us the animals crossed and that we needed to keep speeds slow. Since we wanted to enter the park through the South end we had to go up through Teton. Entering Yellowstone Park proper we where greeted by towering tree lined roads that soon gave way to sweeping views that dropped from the side of the road into a river more then 300 plus feet below (insert a very freaked out up ah inspired me). After awhile on the driver's side we came upon the largest lake we had seen! Lewis Lake is a monster of a lake, a deep and wondrous blue..... well that is NOTHING! to Yellowstone Lake (yeah lake lol). After passing through some road work we made it to Old Faithful. Unlucy for us we did not get to see it go off -_-... time and sunshine was running out o us so we pushed on to some of the other geysers in the Upper and Middle basin. After stopping for some more photos we piled back in and set off again.
While laughing and talking I just barely noticed us passing the first animal we had seen (ok I lied we had a female mule deer dart past us on the road but...). There on the side of the road in a field was a BUFFALO!!!
After many ooohs and aaahs we jumped back in and went on. After a little more we came upon a whole ton of cars pulled off and gawking at many elk grazing and drinking in a river. We pulled off and join in snapping some pics. After getting back in and pulling off in the "pull off" we took some more elk pics and then continued on up the road. As the sun was failing we came upon the most awesome sight yet. Two HUGH BUFFALO where walking along the passenger side of the road. We where going so fast that we had to double back. As we passed them the second time I had John slow down almost to a stop and with my flash got some up close and personal pics of these MASSIVE beautiful animals! (my fav pics of the whole trip ^_^). lol when the flash went off on the second one the buffalo looked over and started walking our way! Eeek this big guy was within arms length already O.O! I told John to gun it lol. The BEST WAY to end a Yellowstone visit all be it a short one (well several hours but felt short lol I guess things always do when you are doing things like this).
After a few hour drive through Idaho back to Jackson we crashed in our room and slept hard for 7 hours. (got there at 11pm-ish and got to bed around 12:30am-1am and woke up at 8:15am)
After showering and getting ready we cleaned up the room and checked out and was on our way back home by 9:45-10:30am. On the way back we passed through Afton and stopped for a bit of lunch and to let the kids look around. We also passed through a very small town called "Smoot" with a population of only 100! I kids you not... that was less then any town we passed through in Idaho last year.
At some point we took a new turn that diverged from the way we took to get to Jackson in the first place and ended up passing Bear Lake and and through Cache Forest and some much more!
So onto the pics! (..that are for some reason out of order :/)
We set out at about a little after 5am Thursday on our 4 hour and 40 min drive to Jackson (*cough more like 5-6 hours cough*). After taking a wrong turn just before Cokeville and turning about and getting back on track we started our drive through Bridger Nation forest. Beautiful place with the surprise that cattle and sheep graze freely through it and across the open highway that cuts through it. Also many great views of the mighty Snake river.
After we got to Jackson and checked into our room we rested up for a couple hours took potty breaks and had lunch then set out for Teton.
Driving through Grand Teton National Park we saw beautiful colors of Fall hanging from the trees, along the road old park signs from the 40s-50s warning us the animals crossed and that we needed to keep speeds slow. Since we wanted to enter the park through the South end we had to go up through Teton. Entering Yellowstone Park proper we where greeted by towering tree lined roads that soon gave way to sweeping views that dropped from the side of the road into a river more then 300 plus feet below (insert a very freaked out up ah inspired me). After awhile on the driver's side we came upon the largest lake we had seen! Lewis Lake is a monster of a lake, a deep and wondrous blue..... well that is NOTHING! to Yellowstone Lake (yeah lake lol). After passing through some road work we made it to Old Faithful. Unlucy for us we did not get to see it go off -_-... time and sunshine was running out o us so we pushed on to some of the other geysers in the Upper and Middle basin. After stopping for some more photos we piled back in and set off again.
While laughing and talking I just barely noticed us passing the first animal we had seen (ok I lied we had a female mule deer dart past us on the road but...). There on the side of the road in a field was a BUFFALO!!!
After many ooohs and aaahs we jumped back in and went on. After a little more we came upon a whole ton of cars pulled off and gawking at many elk grazing and drinking in a river. We pulled off and join in snapping some pics. After getting back in and pulling off in the "pull off" we took some more elk pics and then continued on up the road. As the sun was failing we came upon the most awesome sight yet. Two HUGH BUFFALO where walking along the passenger side of the road. We where going so fast that we had to double back. As we passed them the second time I had John slow down almost to a stop and with my flash got some up close and personal pics of these MASSIVE beautiful animals! (my fav pics of the whole trip ^_^). lol when the flash went off on the second one the buffalo looked over and started walking our way! Eeek this big guy was within arms length already O.O! I told John to gun it lol. The BEST WAY to end a Yellowstone visit all be it a short one (well several hours but felt short lol I guess things always do when you are doing things like this).
After a few hour drive through Idaho back to Jackson we crashed in our room and slept hard for 7 hours. (got there at 11pm-ish and got to bed around 12:30am-1am and woke up at 8:15am)
After showering and getting ready we cleaned up the room and checked out and was on our way back home by 9:45-10:30am. On the way back we passed through Afton and stopped for a bit of lunch and to let the kids look around. We also passed through a very small town called "Smoot" with a population of only 100! I kids you not... that was less then any town we passed through in Idaho last year.
At some point we took a new turn that diverged from the way we took to get to Jackson in the first place and ended up passing Bear Lake and and through Cache Forest and some much more!
So onto the pics! (..that are for some reason out of order :/)
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